Saturday, April 4, 2015

The Tension of Love and

 42 Arrested in 'Taliban Gang' Bust   


 (0coter 2009)

The Tension of love, justice, hope, and dreams deferred
The Tension of KNOWING some of these folks needed to be picked up
And some are a tadpole being rolled into a tsunami
The Tension of knowing these “grown men” as they were little boys,
Seeing their struggles and wiping their tears
Of watching as they grew into the men that lost their way
The Tension of love and hate aimed into one direction
The Tension of the police doing their job
And the church failing at theirs
The Tension of sitting with mothers as they weep
Their tadpole's shown as a monster
And listening to others describe their Monsters
As angles

The Tension of those from the outside with all their comments
Colliding with those that know a different story
The Tension of little boys who have seen nothing else and
Grown men who know better
The Tension of HOODSTARZ as Role Models and Role Models as
HOODSTARZ
The Tension of 42 African American sitting in a courtroom
With 42 white lawyers
The Tension of 60 folks watching
and only 2 of them men
The Tension of “ I told you”
and I’m so sorry for you
The Tension of 10 years to life
And you can never give back what you have taken
The tension of paying a debt
And those who love you PAYING it DOUBLE
The Tension of kids without daddies
Becoming daddies without kids.
The Tension of a straight A junior
Unable to help her mother
The Tension of a mother's fight
Unable to undo what is done
The Tension of CRACK COCAINE sells
And COCAINE buyers
The Tension of a community without 42 members
And 36 children without fathers
The Tension of a Father incarcerated with his sons
And untold stories,
The Tension of celebrating LIFE GIVING choices
And mourning that you were there when it started
The Tension of systemic issues
And personal choice
The Tension of Truth
And fear spewed by media
The Tension of communities forgotten
And one-sided stories
The Tension of God’s promises
And perceived reality

The Tension of LOVE, JUSTICE, HOPE, and DREAMS DEFERRED.

A Target


(2009)

How is it possible
That you might be
A target?
Coining a word
Does not make it normal
Where the fuck
Is justice
Who is screaming
On the streets
Who the FUCK cares
Your blood runs down the sidewalk
Into the gutter
Screaming your name
Drowned by the other screams
I wonder why I can’t sleep
And why you look so
Fucking tried
Paris, Derrick, Giggs, Angelica, Dontea, Jameace, Tyrone
Kaneeta, Bookie, Daron, Anthony, DJ, Bonnie, Sonya, Isaiah
Coining a word does not justify your death
Does not make you not a soul
It simply defies truth
When does..

Where does this story end.

Some thoughts for TalenaLashy

Some thoughts
(2007)


Spinning and looking for
The TRUTH

Tired and frustrated of the
CONFUSION

Angry and Exhausted from
The PAIN

Hungry and Capable of
LOVE

I stand with you
I stand knowing the
TRUTH
You are strong, beautiful, talented, intelligent and overall
AMAZING

I stand with you
I stand knowing that
CONFUSION
Lasts only a while….
As things settled
You will see the paths, valleys and mountain tops
And
CLARITY
Will reign

I stand with you
I stand knowing that you are
LOVED
In 1000 ways…
By Many People….
By the God of the Universe

I stand
Hoping that TRUTH, CLARITY, LOVE will surround you
And DEFINE you



Be Strong

Be Strong
(sept 2009)

Be Strong Heather
Stand up for yourself
Demand to be treated as you
Are
SPECIAL
Stop loving those that
Cannot love you back
Stop defeating the fight within
You
Love yourself better
Let the Lord of all Love you
Be strong Heather
Do not waste more time
Or energy
Or love
Demand to be treated well
To be special
Stop stop stop
Stop trying to please
The unpleaseable
Release the past
Look deep within yourself
Where is your voice
That you want for Janisa
Where is your voice
That crys for justice
That fights for the little guy
The one that is forgotten
Look in the mirror
You are she
She is you
Stop stop stop
And let the Lord Love You
Let Him redefine your value
Stop fighting for something or someone who
Must fight for themselves
You are the only one who can
Stop stop stop this
He (the Lord) will wait for you…
But what is the cost
Listen
And you will hear
Listen
Precious daughter
Listen
You are strong enough
With my Help
You, You can stop
You Can Do this
It is not bigger then you
I am in you…
Take back what you have given
And stop
Stop
Looking for something that cannot be
Stop believing in something
I have not promised
I will change Him…
You must release
Let go
Leave
And be
Ok
There will be no healthy ending to something
That was never healthy.
Stop hoping
Stop
Listen
Stand tall
Be strong
Fight

But stop

Raw Faith

Raw Faith
(October 2009)

It exists without conversation
Or much, if any theology
It isn’t wrapped neatly
In a self-sanctified package
In fact…to many,
it
is
Invisible
clouded
by
worn out faces
bowed down heads
glossy eyes
dreams and “success”
choked by survival
but yet
Raw faith stands

It stands
on the bus stop in the prayers
Of a young mother…who needs
To be to work on time

It kneels in the chapel
As tears run down
And faith refuses to run out

It screams when every system
Seems to fight you and the dreams
Of your children

It comforts when gun shots
Ring…sirens blare…
And thoughts of your baby boy 19
Wonder...in fear

Raw Faith shows up

Refusing to go back to sleep
Leaving at 5 to a job which falls short
Every month

When at the edge
It beckons you back

It trickles out of every conversation even
When camouflaged by “words”

At times it is faint, only a whisper from
Weary lips


The size of a mustard seed